95% Healed From Bell’s Palsy

Recovering from an illness is like winning the grand prize of a lottery ticket!

If you would notice my lips are now aligned and that I can smile better. Though the most important thing I believe is that I can speak better and I can eat better. No more messy food in my table and there is no longer that tingling sensation in my mouth.

I let the weeks pass by working hard, daily therapy and hot compress at night. Fought depression hard! Sometimes I would myself crying at night because I miss my mom so much especially that I have this condition. I would think of her taking good care of me and caressing me to sleep so I won’t feel sad. There are times when I would question God for giving me so much misery when he knows that mom is no longer here to help me make it through. I would wonder why he would test my strength and my FAITH when HE already has my mom…But then again, perhaps he just wants me to always remember HIM…

Anyway, I have made plans already for the next few months. I want to meet my other highschool friends, my college friends, new-found friends and visit places I have never been. But yes, I need to save though for that. LOL! I need to work harder (and bill higher)! to afford all plans I have made…Hmmm…God will take good care of me, I know that for for sure. If it’s meant to be, it will be. One thing this trials is teaching me to TRUST the Lord for his well-made plans for me.

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Birthday Thought (2017)

What I have learned in my 42 years of existence:

Respect my self.
Be kind to my self.
Love my self.

After doing the first 3, I learned to:

Respect other people.
Being kind to people.
Loving humanity as I would have love my family.

I also learned that even if I respect other people, there will be others who does not understand the concept of respect. They feel that you owe them whatever you have. They feel like they OWN you.

I also learned that even if I am kind to people, there will be some who will take advantage of my kindness thinking I am stupid not to know the difference.

Fortunately for them, I know when to stress myself and when not to. If someone or something is not helping me to be happy, healthy and successful then I say adios! so long! farewell!

I learned to know where I stand. Learned who I am and what I am.

I learned that I will never beg to be loved, to be respected and to be understood.

I am me. I am not stubborn, just wiser.

Struggle is Real

Today marks the first day after I was diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy. And heck, the struggle is real!

I woke up scared that my face turned to worst. Scared that I might not be able to do the usual things I needed to do. Infact I stayed for about 30 minutes in bed before I stood up and started my usual day.

Today is July 1st. Brand new day, brand new month, brand new goals! I won’t let this illness hinder me from doing what I need to do and what I loved to do. Yep! Working! Well, honestly I am enjoying what I do. I am into social media management and some administrative tasks.

I had breakfast with the family and I noticed that I can’t eat using a tablespoon (we use tablespoon to eat) but only a teaspoon. I just can’t control my mouth enough and so I get a bit messy. I can’t drink properly without the use of a straw. Ding it! So would that mean I won’t go out and have fun? Well, that remains to be seen.

I took a bath and I noticed I had to help my left eye to close so water won’t get inside…how inconvenient!

I turned on my PC and started to work…yeah, you got it right! I am having a hard time looking at it without having to wipe the tears away!

A friend told me that stress could be one of the reasons why I got this…well, not a far fetched idea as I have been stressed to the moon and back for the past few weeks! Maybe…maybe…

But as I have mentioned earlier, this illness won’t hinder me from doing what I have to do, needed to do and loved doing. Perhaps some of you would say that I have to stop and rest. Easier said than done. I have my father and my niece to feed. I have to pay for her tuition fee and her other needs. Plus, I have to have money for my regular check up and money to buy for my medication.

I have FAITH bigger than my problems so I know HE will take good care of me.

Ciao!

I Have Bell’s Palsy

I have been experiencing a sudden numbness in my face and my eyes would twitch for 30 seconds or so the past few days. I didn’t think it was serious. Perhaps I was just tired. I woke up yesterday feeling more uneasy because of the numbness in my face and I feel like my jaw is locked. I just continued working as I really have a lot of things to finish before the weekend.

Today is a different story. I was having breakfast when I noticed I am having a hard time eating properly. I am also having a hard time drinking… The feeling of numbness in my left face is making me more uneasy. I started to pray asking God not to let me have a stroke or something more serious…I have not tried looking at the mirror though. I don’t usually look in the mirror for the longest time because I don’t like seeing how not beautiful I am. Well, there are days when I don’t give a damn but there are days too when you wish you were pretty, right? Anyway, as I was saying, after eating lunch I decided to look in the mirror and see if my suspicion was right. And it was. My lips are distorted (a bit) and that I can’t close my left eye fully and that numbness is more evident this time. What? Why did I wait until lunch time before I looked in the mirror? Well, I am afraid to see the reality too. It’s so hard to be sick nowadays when I really need all the money I can get for my family. It’s so scary because I know that If I get sick today my mom will no longer be around to keep me calm and take care of me.

Anyway, I went to see a neurologist today and yes, I was diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy. So it’s confirmed. I am scared to the bones!

According to National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke (NINDS), Bell’s palsy is a form of temporary facial paralysis resulting from damage or trauma to the facial nerves. The facial nerve-also called the 7th cranial nerve-travels through a narrow, bony canal (called the Fallopian canal) in the skull, beneath the ear, to the muscles on each side of the face. For most of its journey, the nerve is encased in this bony shell.

Each facial nerve directs the muscles on one side of the face, including those that control eye blinking and closing, and facial expressions such as smiling and frowning. Additionally, the facial nerve carries nerve impulses to the lacrimal or tear glands, the saliva glands, and the muscles of a small bone in the middle of the ear called the stapes. The facial nerve also transmits taste sensations from the tongue.

When Bell’s palsy occurs, the function of the facial nerve is disrupted, causing an interruption in the messages the brain sends to the facial muscles. This interruption results in facial weakness or paralysis.

Also, according to NINDS, Because the facial nerve has so many functions and is so complex, damage to the nerve or a disruption in its function can lead to many problems. Symptoms of Bell’s palsy can vary from person to person and range in severity from mild weakness to total paralysis.  These symptoms may include twitching, weakness, or paralysis on one or rarely both sides of the face.  Other symptoms may include drooping of the eyelid and corner of the mouth, drooling, dryness of the eye or mouth, impairment of taste, and excessive tearing in one eye. Most often these symptoms, which usually begin suddenly and reach their peak within 48 hours, lead to significant facial distortion.

Other symptoms may include pain or discomfort around the jaw and behind the ear, ringing in one or both ears, headache, loss of taste, hypersensitivity to sound on the affected side, impaired speech, dizziness, and difficulty eating or drinking.

Bell’s palsy occurs when the nerve that controls the facial muscles is swollen, inflamed, or compressed, resulting in facial weakness or paralysis. Exactly what causes this damage, however, is unknown.

Most scientists believe that a viral infection such as viral meningitis or the common cold sore virus—herpes simplex—causes the disorder. They believe that the facial nerve swells and becomes inflamed in reaction to the infection, causing pressure within the Fallopian canal and leading to ischemia (the restriction of blood and oxygen to the nerve cells).  In some mild cases (where recovery is rapid), there is damage only to the myelin sheath of the nerve.  The myelin sheath is the fatty covering-which acts as an insulator-on nerve fibers in the brain.

The disorder has also been associated with influenza or a flu-like illness, headaches, chronic middle ear infection, high blood pressure, diabetes, sarcoidosis, tumors, Lyme disease, and trauma such as skull fracture or facial injury.

So, there you go, the medical explanation and all. Actually I am just trying to learn something of this too so I post it here. Let’s see what will happen in the next few days. I know this is curable and nothing to worry about. But who gets calm when they are sick?!

Lost

The darkness slowly creeps in. I run inside to look for that one thing that makes me feel safe when the moon starts to show itself. How can I find it when I don’t even see a thing? I try to recall where I last seen it and walk slowly to its place.

Its not there! I tried to move my hands around and see if it just moved a bit. Perhaps it fell down? I slowly sat and move my arms around trying to find it. Alas! Its still not there!

Think! Think where I last saw it! Maybe it was somewhere else… Could it be near the window? Could it be near the table?

Why did I have to wait for the darkness to creep in before I look for it? Now its too late! I can’t even remember where I last saw it.

How can I feel safe now when the last string of courage I have is gone? Oh darkness! How I wish for the morning Sun to come!

Inspired By Mark Zuckerberg

“We must have a purpose in life in order to move forward. But it is also important that we include other people in what we do so they can have a purpose too.” That was part of the speech of Facebook founder, Mark Zuckerberg during Harvard’s Graduation rites a couple of days ago.

As I have mentioned in my previous post, I was sacked out of job and here I am thinking of what to do with the extra time I have in my hands. Technically I am still busy with my other clients but I have been used to having full load 20 hours a day. What he said during his speech hits home. The reason being is because I have been meaning to start having my own business. I have a lot of ideas but I always fell short of action. It’s either because I am afraid to fail or I would often say as an excuse to execute – I don’t have time.

I have time but I am not making time. Not making time for me to think thoroughly about it and eventually do something about it. I know I have the knowledge and the experience but I am so afraid that what I maybe starting is going to fail.

But as Mark Zuckerberg said, those people who succeeded are also those that fail a thousand times. I know it has been said in the past so many times but admit it, we are still afraid to fail.

At this time, I think I’m getting tired of being afraid and making excuses.

I wanted to create this dream of mine so that I can get other people have a purpose in their life too. I wanted to share what I know and passionate about to other people. Maybe I will be the missing link of someone who is trying to find his worth in this world full of uncertainties.

Wish me luck!

Sacked Out!

I was sacked out today! The call that woke me up was the HR manager.

I can’t complain because I am only a consultant and they can fire me anytime they want to. The sad thing is that I am already decided that I will resign at the end of the month but they fired me before I can do that!

I was working as a Business Development Consultant for a company who is marketing a medical device for the first time here in the country. Although concept-wise, there has been like it in the country but because of red tape the product is not moving forward.

I feel like it will happen to the same product that the company I used to work for. The owner wants to have it marketed to the government. He wants to do it without giving anything in return to the officials who will ask for the budget to purchase those products!

My recommendation was to market it first to doctors, hospitals, clinics, diagnostic centers and big time medical suppliers. Well, what do I know?!

I also took care of the social media accounts. I was able to grow the followers from 3 social media companies ORGANICALLY. The owner does not believe that social media advertisement can help the marketing campaign. So what do I know again, right?

A semiconductor company, a technology company BUT could not grasp the idea of home-based workers. A company that does not believe to its people. But again, what do I know?!

God works in mysterious ways though. Last night, one of my previous client called me and said he needed me to work on his online school. It’s something I am really looking forward to.

Perhaps this is also a sign that I need to start my own VA business. I’d like to start slowly. A former colleague wanted to help students from the university near his home. Instead of working at fast food chains why not use their knowledge in the field of their choice by working online. I like his mission and I want to help him.

Things happen for a reason.

I will Learn How to Cook

I just cooked mushroom omelette today!

I have never been good in the kitchen. I only know how to fry egg, hotdog, ham, bacon and burger patty. It’s something I have never been interested in because my mother has always been there to cook for me…for us…But since she died last year I never tasted a decent food in the house.

Don’t get me wrong, my dad is a good cook too…IF he likes to be but most often than not he just cooks because he needs to. It’s either over cooked or under cooked! The house maid is also not so much of a good cook. She has different way of cooking the usual food we are accustomed to. Although I can’t blame her because each and everyone has a way of cooking a particular food. My mom’s Adobo is different from my dad’s Adobo so much so from our house maid.

Perhaps I have been interested in cooking. I think I am just afraid that I may never be good as my mom. But sometimes I would find myself looking in the internet for recipes. Especially pasta, oh! I love pasta!

It dawned on me last night that if I wanted to eat food that I would really like, then I have to learn how to cook. So I am starting with breakfast. I just hope I can keep this enthusiasm. But who wouldn’t if one is not eating the food he likes, right?

Should you have recommendations please don’t hesitate to send me a message.

Ciao!

Ill-Mannered Children are Caused by Parents Like You

Having 3 nieces around me, I would often find myself in a situation where I have to discipline them because they are in my house. 1 of 3 children literally lived with me since birth and her parents have left her in my care so I know I can discipline her the way I was disciplined by my parents. With the other 2, it was a different story. They are my brother’s children from his mistress (mistress #1…yes he has several…). The eldest is a very fine young girl who as we would often say very much like her paternal grandmother. Finesse, diligent and loving. All she needs is a guidance on how to be a good person to everyone. The youngest is a spoiled-brat. She would often throw tantrums at anytime and at anything.

I don’t blame the kid because it does not matter if she was born like that…She may be born a spoiled-brat but if her upbringing is different, how can she be one?

I blame her parents. I feel sorry for the kid.

In our world right now where we all have to be tough but knows when to compromise, how can these kids survive?

I read this article “If you don’t want your kids to be ill mannered, stop doing these 5 things” and I tell you, they are spot on!

1. Stop being afraid of them

If your child becomes demanding and you panic just to fulfill their request, this may be sending the wrong message. Kids may get used to the idea of using crying or throwing a fit as a way to manipulate. While indulging them is part of the way parents show they care, it’s important not to overdo it.

According to Dr. Susan Newman, the first step to changing unhealthy patterns is to ask yourself if you’re spoiling your kid by giving them “unearned privileges.” This happens when you give in to their every whim, for example, to gain their approval or make up for things you didn’t experience in your own childhood. Try to help them learn about the difference between a “want” and a “need.”

2. Stop making excuses for them

Keep yourself from downplaying bad behavior. Don’t justify their tantrums by saying things like “that’s just how children are” because this will inadvertently encourage them to continue this pattern of behavior.

Parenting Coach Lisa Bunnage cautions parents that the longer you wait, the harder it’s going to be to stop excusing your kid’s poor manners. She shares that her form of discipline is coupled with love—prioritizing rules, manners, and chores while tweaking it based on her kid’s needs.

“Remember to meet their needs and manage their wants,” she writes on Brat Busters.

3. Stop cautioning others not to scold them

Back in the day, it was normal for teachers and non-relative elders to scold kids, but now it’s widely frowned upon. Many moms prefer to focus on their own child while refraining to discipline someone else’s.

It’s important to be open to others disciplining your child—within reason. For instance, if your child’s teacher catches him misbehaving, she can’t very well let it slide. So long as you open the lines of communication with your kid’s teacher, she can be your helper in making sure your child is respectful and well behaved in school and at home.

4. Stop spoiling them

Dr. Jim Taylor suggests assessing what you’re teaching them daily. Are you helping them achieve the necessary “attitudes and skillsets” to be a functioning adult with healthy habits? When it comes to money, for instance, his advice is to ask yourself if you’re teaching them the value of respect, discipline, responsibility, and delayed gratification, which are traits that can’t be developed if you keep on giving them what they want.

5. Stop giving them shortcuts

No parent wants their kid to have a difficult time, but there is some merit to letting them work for things. A simple example would be when you’re at a restaurant and they start to get antsy, don’t just thrust an iPad in their faces so they can while away the time and leave you in peace.

Teach them to be patient and find ways to amuse themselves without the help of a gadget.

Another way to instill the value of hard work would be to require them to do chores even if you have household helpers. Teacher and dad of three Andrew Andestic says parents should encourage their kids to dream, but to emphasize that ambition is nothing without hard work.

Believing in kids while being honest with them, assuring them that you’ll always be there for them, will inspire confidence and compliance, not out of obligation but out of deep respect, which is the root of genuinely good and lasting manners.

I think this article summed it all up. Please dear parents, don’t bring up another spoiled brat into this world.

We all complain and kept on asking what is happening in this world when we all know that this is a product of how the leaders and society of today were brought up. Yes, we are either big headed or timid.

 

Intricacies of Life

I don’t have any idea what to write…

Heck! I don’t even have a title while writing these 2 lines.

All I know is I wanted to write something. There’s a lot going in my mind that I don’t even know where to start. It’s like slicing a fresh orange but no juice is coming out.

Have you ever felt that way? Have you experienced the same thing? You want to write something and yet your hands are not doing any writing or typing at all?

I wanted to be one of the best social media consultant in the world. Yes, world. I have clients in Australia, in the United States and here in my own country. Although this particular home client of mine is one hell of a challenge. Monetary wise, they pay okay. But some of the top management are people still living in the 80’s. Not that the approach they have in mind is not good. It’s just it is not applicable to what we are dealing right now. Seems they were trap in the era where technology means having a rotary phone. So much about that client…Anyway, as I was saying I want to be the BEST! But I can’t seem to find time to train my self in the field. I won’t blame time. Time is here. Myself is not cooperating. Too lazy. Too stubborn.

And that is one of my problem. I want to do a lot of things but myself is not doing anything. It’s like wanting to exercise where I open YouTube, find a video for beginners on how to exercise properly. All I do is watch. I was not moving. My self is just sitting here and watching the trainer do her thing.

I have so many ideas running while I am inside the restroom but when I come back to sit in front of my PC everything went blank!

I know that the problem is ME. I know that I have to start doing something. I know that the solution is within me. But why am I so lazy?! What the F is wrong with me?!

Oh! now I have a title!